September 9th, 2008, 11:56 pm
I am pissed off. I’m pissed off at myself for letting people walk all over me and I do nothing to stop it. People know they can do it and I let them. I pissed off at others for doing what they want with me. I’m pissed off at people who are mad at me for reasons I don’t understand. I say something that they themselves say atleast five times a day and they get offended. Yet everyone can make fun of me and I have to take it. I can’t sleep at night so I’m ornery all day. Everything frustrates me. All I can do is smile and laugh so I don’t freak out.
Behind all the anger I’m sad. Sad that people take advantage of me and walk all over me. Sad that I let people do it. Sad that some of the few friends I have don’t like me. Sad because I blame myself for everything.
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August 15th, 2008, 08:14 pm
I met a girl which is why I haven’t been posting. She’s much cuter and more fun to kiss than the internet. As such I have decided to neglect the three readers that I have. Sorry.
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July 2nd, 2008, 11:22 am
I’m a blonde. Did you know that? My co-workers didn’t. One co-worker in particular—she’s short and blamed her lack of height as the reason she couldn’t see that my roots are pretty blonde. I think she’s just threatened by having another blonde in the office.
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May 6th, 2008, 08:21 pm
I feel like anyone that that associates with her I can’t trust. I don’t know what poison she is putting in their heads or where their loyalty lies. People I thought I would always trust I now question. I can’t stand this feeling. I hate not trusting my friends. I hope this lack of trust is only temporary.
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May 3rd, 2008, 07:26 pm
Everyone knows that when you go to the grocery on a Saturday afternoon you are asking to wait forever to checkout. Self checkouts are no exception even if you are getting one or two items. Today I was picking up a three items from a grocery store. I went to the self checkout since that is usually quicker for a couple items. I was lucky and didn’t have to wait for the lady that was doing the self checkout with her whole cart of what looked like weekly groceries.
I’m working my way through the payment process going as fast as I could when I hear a guy say “dude, hurry up” in an annoyed voice. If only I wasn’t so shy I would have told him to go have sex with himself but instead I continued going as fast as I could wondering what I was doing wrong. Why didn’t he say anything to the old lady with half the store in her cart? Why did he choose me, the one that was probably going the fastest to show his lack of patience to? I’ll never know.
In a matter of seconds after the comment I was gone. I was probably at the self checkout machine for less than two minutes and that is not fast enough for people in this world. Especially on a busy afternoon when they should expect lots of people.
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April 21st, 2008, 06:32 pm
My brother and sister in-law have an interesting view on timeouts that I’ve never heard before. Timeout isn’t a punishment for their kids. It’s a time where the child gets a chance to calm down and center himself or herself.
What they do is when they can see Sam, their two year old son, is starting to get frustrated or not acting like his normal self they put him in timeout. This gives him a chance to recenter himself. They say that the most successful timeouts are the ones when Sam blows up, screaming and yelling. After he blows up, he goes back to his normal self. He is able to get out all of his negative emotions in a controlled and safe environment where he can’t hurt himself or others.
Timeouts can be used by adults as well. For instance, your spouse is doing something to upset you. Instead of screaming out your spouse you can put yourself into timeout and later come back to have a constructive discussion.
Just like Sam you can get all of your negative emotions out in controlled and safe environment. You don’t have to worry about hurting yourself or someone else. How you get your emotions out is up to you as long as you get your emotions out (don’t bottle them up) or hurt yourself (cutting is a no no).
If you do try this, hopefully whoever you are mad at will let you go have your timeout. I didn’t realize it at the time but I would try to put myself in timeout when I’d get in a fight with an ex. She wanted to duke it out when I wanted to go calm down. This frustrated me even more and we would yell back and forth hurting each other verbally. It didn’t help out at all. Also, giving you a chance to think you might realize your getting upset over nothing or that you were wrong.
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March 27th, 2008, 02:44 pm
Dear Avril Lavigne,
You are a bitch.
Love,
Eric
P.S. Squeaking is not singing.
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March 5th, 2008, 12:58 am
Since I’m terrible with words and speaking, here is what I really wanted to say tonight.
Thanks Wes. I really appreciate everything you’ve done. You’ve always been there and I know I can count on you for anything. You were always very helpful and patient with everyone and rarely did you ever ask for anything in return. You gave willingly.
Thank you for always being my friend. Thank you for always including me. It’s hard for me to make myself part of the group but you were always able to make me feel like I was wanted. We’ve known each other for many many years and I don’t think there has been a falling out between us. I hope we will continue to have years and years of friendship.
I am happy and excited for you to go on a mission. I know you will have an awesome time and grow. I know you are ready to go. I can tell by what you say and how you act. I really appreciate hearing your testimony tonight. To hear those things coming from you meant a lot. It’s no surprise that lately I’ve been wondering from the trail I’ve always followed. I’ve always known the church was true and it meant a lot to me to hear you say that.
Wes, I look up to you. You are one of my role models. You are an amazing and awesome person.
I know you will do a good job. You’ve got a good head on your shoulders. Have fun while you are out there. I will miss you. I love you man.
Your good friend,
Eric
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March 2nd, 2008, 12:50 pm
Whoever is above me recently decided to walk a lot. Especially at two in the morning. So loud and annoying. All l day and night they walk and walk and walk. It’s starting to drive me nuts.
Edit: I hear a baby! That explains the pacing at weird hours of the night. Now I feel like a jerk…
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September 4th, 2006, 02:11 pm
Before I get started, I’m not saying emo’s are bad. Emo’s are awesome! They have awesome ideas, music and some pretty sweet looking hair. It’s just that things like this bug me. I’ll explain why later.
I found this in a friend’s blog.
Isnt it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a mini with a tshirt that barely cover anything?
Isnt it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful?
Isnt it funny that a guy can get away with being a gangsta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone
-are you laughing?
Isnt it funny an emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more shit from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?
Isnt it funny that you dont mind your friends drinking, smoking but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a lecture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?
-im not laughing
Its so funny that you and your friends can make a girls life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.
Isnt it funny that you can call emos, punks, goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart.
How can you call a girl a poser, how can you say “your emo” or “attention seeker” without spending a second trying to figure out why there are cuts on her wrists and why she spends her lunghtimes crying instead of laughing with her friends
-keep on laughing
Isnt it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons life
without knowing her situation with her friends
of her family
or her life
Brave isnt going up on stage and stripping
Brave is not saying a speech
Or dumping your boyfriend
Brave is
Going to school on a mufti day and not for a second caring what the whores around you are saying about your clothes
Its listening to your own music and being proud of it
Its going through every day with the things people say to your face and behind your back and you still keep quiet
Its knowing what your “friends” are saying about you and still calling them your friends
Brave is knowing that tomorrow isnt a bright and happy future
Its another day of bitching and dodging rumors.
First off, why is it that emo’s are embarrassed to be called emo? They are the only group I have seen embarrassed by this title. Even the geeks and nerds aren’t embarrassed to be called a geek or a nerd. They are proud of that title.
Second, why do emo’s have to be negative all of the time? Life is what you make it to be. You can always find something positive to think about. You don’t have to dwell on the negative. Life sucks. Cry a river, build a bridge, get over it. Do not think that you are the only one that has the problems you do. I’m absolutely certain there is a cheerleader, jock or some other very popular person that is going through the exact same or similar problems as you. They choose to deal with it differently.
This is sort of off topic but I’m going to address it anyways. Anyone who has committed suicide or attempted suicide is a selfish bastard. I rarely talk about this. My step grandpa committed suicide at 82 years old. It devasted my grandma. It hurt his family and mine as well. He was a coward and took the easy way out. He only thought about himself. He didn’t think about what it would do to anyone else. It affected us all and not only him.
It is very sad that people mock those that let their feelings out. I believe that everyone should let their feelings out and vent every once in a while. It doesn’t help to be negative all of the time but to let your feelings out everyonce in a while is healthy. If we actually knew each other’s problems, then we wouldn’t feel alone and we could help each other. There’s no point in moping around feeling sorry for yourself though. Deal with your issues so you can be happy.
Comments are welcome.
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