June 19th, 2008, 10:56 pm
After losing around 10 pounds over the past year due to stress, depression and other stuff I’ve decided it’s time to gain it back. Since I’ve always been skinny why not gain more than just the ten pounds? To do this I’m going to eat more calories. I want to buy some weight gainner from GNC since that will almost double my the number of calories I eat in a day. But for now I’m going to get use to eating more food and drink Slim Fast on top of what I’m already eating.
After four days, today is the first day I haven’t felt like throwing up. I have been feeling sick and hungry at the same time since I started. I want more food but my body can’t handle it. I’m sure somewhere in my head I’m causing the sickness as well. I just need to remember it’s for the best and I’ll like myself better. I need to keep going even though it’s tough. I hope it gets easier.
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June 10th, 2008, 09:54 pm
Last week I wrote a letter to a friend who is currently on a mission for the LDS church. Today I checked my PO box for the first time in a while and there was my letter to my friend. I sat there looking at it puzzled as to why it was in my PO box. There wasn’t any stamp or sticker saying to send it back to the sender. After a minute or two I realized I switched the place of the addresses. I guess subconsciously I wanted to get a letter so I wrote one to myself. It certainly surprised me to receive it. Maybe next time I’ll write myself an email and save the 47 cents.
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June 6th, 2008, 04:45 pm
My blog sucks. I should pay someone to update my blog for me. No. Not worth it. Everyone can make up their own posts on what they think I would be writing.
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May 20th, 2008, 04:45 pm
Wake up in the morning after a bad night of sleep. Cat meowing all night, upstairs neighbors vacuuming at midnight. Feel like crap. Go to the kitchen to make sure the cat has food in her dish and it’s full of ants! Swear. Dump food into garbage can. Grab lighter and start burning ants.
All of the ants in my apartment are dead or dying. Hop in shower. Get out of shower and see the screen in the window has been pushed out. Cat is no where to be found. Swear again. Get worried that cat has run away. Quickly get dressed and hurry outside. Look for cat and find her in bushes near the window. She didn’t get far. Cat is scared so she won’t let me get close. Have to scare her back through the window into the apartment. Close all windows and vow not to open them again. Cat acts like nothing happened and she is my best friend although minutes before she wouldn’t let me get close to her.
Go to work ready for the day to be over since I already had all the excitement I can take in one day.
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May 16th, 2008, 04:56 pm
Monday I went to the skate park and rode my bike for about an hour. Near the end my knee started to feel like I needed to pop it but I couldn’t. It didn’t hurt or anything like that. It kinda hurt the next morning. Nothing worth mentioning though.
Wednesday there was no pain and I decided to head to the skate park again. Rode for only about 30 minutes and it was very mild. I wake up the next morning and my knee hurts and aches bad. I feel like I’m 80 years old. I can’t put any weight on my knee or bend it without pain.
Today is day two of the pain and it still hurts like it did yesterday. I shudder every time I have to get my leg into position to use the clutch on my car (once it position it doesn’t hurt). Walking is fine but getting in and out of my car hurts. Using stairs makes me nervous.
I wonder what I did. I hope it gets better by Friday since I plan on riding bikes with a friend all that day while we are in Oregon. After that, I think I’m done with skate parks. If riding mildly hurts me then I wonder what an aggressive ride would do. I’m too young for old people pains.
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May 6th, 2008, 08:21 pm
I feel like anyone that that associates with her I can’t trust. I don’t know what poison she is putting in their heads or where their loyalty lies. People I thought I would always trust I now question. I can’t stand this feeling. I hate not trusting my friends. I hope this lack of trust is only temporary.
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May 3rd, 2008, 07:26 pm
Everyone knows that when you go to the grocery on a Saturday afternoon you are asking to wait forever to checkout. Self checkouts are no exception even if you are getting one or two items. Today I was picking up a three items from a grocery store. I went to the self checkout since that is usually quicker for a couple items. I was lucky and didn’t have to wait for the lady that was doing the self checkout with her whole cart of what looked like weekly groceries.
I’m working my way through the payment process going as fast as I could when I hear a guy say “dude, hurry up” in an annoyed voice. If only I wasn’t so shy I would have told him to go have sex with himself but instead I continued going as fast as I could wondering what I was doing wrong. Why didn’t he say anything to the old lady with half the store in her cart? Why did he choose me, the one that was probably going the fastest to show his lack of patience to? I’ll never know.
In a matter of seconds after the comment I was gone. I was probably at the self checkout machine for less than two minutes and that is not fast enough for people in this world. Especially on a busy afternoon when they should expect lots of people.
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April 21st, 2008, 06:32 pm
My brother and sister in-law have an interesting view on timeouts that I’ve never heard before. Timeout isn’t a punishment for their kids. It’s a time where the child gets a chance to calm down and center himself or herself.
What they do is when they can see Sam, their two year old son, is starting to get frustrated or not acting like his normal self they put him in timeout. This gives him a chance to recenter himself. They say that the most successful timeouts are the ones when Sam blows up, screaming and yelling. After he blows up, he goes back to his normal self. He is able to get out all of his negative emotions in a controlled and safe environment where he can’t hurt himself or others.
Timeouts can be used by adults as well. For instance, your spouse is doing something to upset you. Instead of screaming out your spouse you can put yourself into timeout and later come back to have a constructive discussion.
Just like Sam you can get all of your negative emotions out in controlled and safe environment. You don’t have to worry about hurting yourself or someone else. How you get your emotions out is up to you as long as you get your emotions out (don’t bottle them up) or hurt yourself (cutting is a no no).
If you do try this, hopefully whoever you are mad at will let you go have your timeout. I didn’t realize it at the time but I would try to put myself in timeout when I’d get in a fight with an ex. She wanted to duke it out when I wanted to go calm down. This frustrated me even more and we would yell back and forth hurting each other verbally. It didn’t help out at all. Also, giving you a chance to think you might realize your getting upset over nothing or that you were wrong.
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April 15th, 2008, 11:24 pm
I’ve got a new layout for my blog. I’ve been working on this for a while. I like this a lot better than my old one. There are still some things I want to do such as make it so that if you open or close a section in the sidebar it stays open as you browse the site. Also some other cool effects using AJAX that I’d like to do.
If you find any bugs, let me know. Or if you have any suggestions.
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April 12th, 2008, 02:37 pm
Today while riding my bike.
Kid 1: Is that a GT? (understandable question since it’s hard to read the bright blue words on the bright green frame)
Me: It’s a Hoffman
Kid 2: Can you do any tricks? (they always ask this question)
Me: No (As annoyed sounding as I could)
Kids always ask if you can do any tricks. Just because I’m riding a BMX bike doesn’t mean I can do tricks. Especially right there for you to watch.
- I haven’t BMX since before I was 16. I was never good then and I’m definitely not good now.
- I was never good at flat land tricks (tricks that you do on flat ground. No ramps, jumps, or anything. Just you and the bike).
- When I was riding it was mostly dirt.
- I want to get back into it but I need to find somewhere to ride and I don’t have the time so I do what I can.
These two kids are ones that are constantly kicking soccer balls into the side of my apartment. Even if I was good I wouldn’t want to be nice to them. I can’t stand them. My cat hides in the bathroom all afternoon because of them.
Sigh. I’m in a bad mood.
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